The Test I Passed

The devil thought he had me-eeee ahhhhhhh but-uh-ruuuuh

Sooooo remember that test I halfway past (that some thought I failed <--- who cares its my blog) well I'll have you know I had another encounter with the girlfriend of my sons father who I thought was a friend. Now if you didn't read my blog 'the test I half way passed' GETCHO LYFE and then come back and read this one! 

So yea the last test didn't go we'll but ahhh this one did. The ramification of the planned meeting is...NONE YA BIT'NEEX (touch ur nose and try NOT to use your imagination! LOL)  Know that None of this and I repeat NONE of this happened w/o Good ol' God so He gets all the glory and I thank Him <praise break>. 

So yea I have been battling forgiving this young lady a looooooong time...1 year 4months....10days....9hours....36minutes...59seconds. So many emotions, so many tears, so much bitterness, confusion, resentment and all other negative words associated with the afore mentioned. 

I have known unforgiveness was is an issue because The bible speaks on it ALOT but my emotions and feelings were running rampant and I was trying to reason with God and everybody else that she hurt me and trying to figure out why I had to let it go...move on...forgive her for "hurting me" I couldn't get it. Well my Naomi (spiritual mother) did what she does best and said something about me I DIDN'T like at the time that caused me to slide back and talk to God and really seek Him to deliver and heal and just do what He does best. In that time studied and prayed about forgiveness and asked God to help me understand it fully so that I could truly forgive the young lady in my heart because I knew it displeased God and she was a sister in Christ and He don't like His chirren to be at odds ( that's in the bible too, dust yours off and read it j/k..maybe). He did just what I asked. Every time I turned on the radio or looked at twitter or tuned into a Joyce Meyer podcast it was on forgiveness. I was excited because I knew he was providing me with what I needed. 

I had been thinking about how am I going to meet with her or get her to agree to talk face to face so we can settle it and I can be free from unforgiveness and we can be cordial because we share friends and she just maybe my sons stepmom if his dad doesn't mess this one up LOL! I wrote a letter and was going to have someone give it to her at a wedding in December but that was too far out for me! And then I found our friend had her bridal shower and didn't invite or tell me about it because the young lady helped plan it and I still feel some kinda way about that because that's a one time event BUT that's all ima say about that because I knew why its just.....anyway...so I called and cried to my good friend who is also a bridesmaid (too much friend sharing around here!) and told her how I felt and what I had been going through spiritually and she agreed to help set up a meeting and be a mediator and it happened and we talked peacefully getting out both sides and glory be to God! 

I don't do long blogs so I'm stopping now. Part 2 coming soon on what I learned about forgiveness and how important it is. If anybody is dealing with unforgiveness I just graduated with my PhD (personal healing degree) in it so if you need help contact me and I will tell you what I learned and pray with/for you if need be <----it's that serious. 

We go through to help others when it's there turn to make it through.

Thanks to Coco, Kris10 and Beda oh and I can't for get Leeyah