Ima Chase That There!

"Ladies tip: If he doesn't pursue you, he doesn't want you. Simple" @bereolaesque <----follow him ladies AND gentz

Mannnn I could go on and on to the break of dawn on this one! Society tells women to get what they want...its a new day...be a go getter <-----DON'T DO IT. Geesh this mentality has mess up so many women including myself. You put yourself out there for what you think may be potential when that "potential" is potentially looking at more potential ya follow (@Candirenee, Hehehe)!

The times may have changed but THEE Word has not and its pretty helpful if we actually apply it as we are suppose to for those of us who profess Christianity, if you don't then.... Check it:

Proverbs 18:22 He who finds a wife finds a good thing,

And obtains favor from the Lord.

Proverbs 31:10 Who can find a virtuous wife? For her worth is far above rubies

Now before i say anything...lemme just start off by saying ----> be nobodies fool ladies, you might get "pursued" for the pudding the cookies the candi ya know. Make sure you check motives and take things slow and ask questions. Been there, done that a few times and at this point in my life #SweetBrown AINT NOBODY GOT TIME FOR THAT
                                                                      Before for I get off topic lemme bring it BACK! HE that FINDETH a WIFE <--- underline that in your bibles...nope, circle it. I meeeeeean I can even really explain that indepth cuz its pretty plain and simple, well I can say THIS...it does NOT say she that findeth a husband. From what I see, hear, and in my opinion for men its all about the chase...not that you have to play supa hard to get ladies but it appears as tho' the male species tend to gravitate towards those who don't throw themselves out there. They may play wit Miss Hott Pants or Miss Loud Mouf for awhile but it will neva be serious and she ain't goin' to meet Ma Dukes!

Ok *takes off invisibilty cloak* there was this guy I was digging we'll call him Edward (lol). It appeared he liked me, he said he was "attracted to me" I was feeling him...found myself checking on him all the time and seeing when he was available and what-not. I realized that he neva asked me out other than to his place *uhm hmm* and I felt like if he wanted to spend time with me to actually get to know me he would have perhaps been doing what I was doing...taking the initiative. To make a long blog short I fell all the way back and sat my lil hips down because I really want that someOne to want me back (wrote a poem about it, check me out mindtofingertipz.blogspot.com <---- shameLESS plug) and you run the risk of that not being the case when you go chasing a man who never initiated the chase or pursued you as a man should.

So Candi is learning that society dont know shhhhh......poop about the chase and that I don't have to be aggressive. While my Mr.Goodbar is being perfected Ima live, laugh, love and prepare myself to be found. And as a matter of fact when He comes He won't even have to chase me, once our paths cross we will continue to walk together...

Candi's ComMINTS
*ladies allow a man to be a man and pursue you
*don't play hard to get, either accept or decline graciously
*if being pursued, show appreciation

The Heavyweight Champ

All my life I had to fight...
                                      ...my momma, my sister, a roommate, an ex, lies, accusations,      
                                       my thoughts (not all physical some verbal and emotional)

For awhile now I have been on defense at all times, quick to battle, retaliate, argue my point , get the last word. Because of my size I made sure my bark was big enough which became who I was and made people afraid to address me out of fear that would "go off". My motto 'who gone check me boo?' and kinda still is.

I do a WHOLELOTTA ranting on social media and of course people always have something to say about what I gotta say and how I shouldn't say this or that and-er-ruh I be ready to go off bout that , like how you gone TELL ME what to do on MY page?!? Like don't just get a life...get YOURS <------that what I be thinking shoooooot gone tellll me...

my mode of protection has always been to either cut you up (verbally) or cut you out (off my life) and quickly with no remorse...stick and move BUT that is NOT the way to go, yea I knew it but it gratified my flesh, my human nature (I been talking lot about self gratification lately...hmmm)

Sooooo Mama Gina pulled me to the side one day after church and read me my rights! Uhm  hmmm she checked me! Now what all was said AINT NUNYA BIT'NESS but the moral of the message was that I didn't have to fight all the time because the battle is the Lords. <------ i was amped to do better BUT instead i got consumed with life and didn't address the issue....i heard but I didn't do (getting convicted as I type)

We living in a cold cold wooooorld ( Cold World by @Lecrae) where everybody is out for themselves ya know Me , Myself, and I is all I got in the e-end ( the Beyonce song) NOT TRUE you got The True and Living God if you have accepted Christ as Lord (If you don't now him hit me up anonymously and I can introduce you, He is a cool dude!)

ANYHOW yesterday Bishop Vaughn McLaughlin of the Potters House International Minitries aka Potters House aka PHCF <---- shameLESS plug ---- > what was I saying...OH YEA,  Bishop was reading from 2 Chronicles 20 about Jehoshaphat (King J) lil sit'ch'ation. Long story short (do go read it tho.) King J had a WHOLEBUNCHA haters that was tryna come side ways on em,, He wasn't ready for that pressure so instead of popping off King J went to seek guidance from the Lord (verse 3 NKJV) ...Good ol' God told em "You ain't e'en gotta worry about that, chill..I gotcha!" (verse 17) SO King J listened, didn't even have to put on his gloves and God came thru on His word and defeated his opposition for him. <--- now thats my version, its just 30 good verses so i urge you to check it out or else ima put the paws on ya, lol

I said typed all that to say share that everytime we don't agree with someone, or someone has offended us whether justified or not...or we feel like we gotta defend ourselves from who knows what to chill and let the Lord do His thing. In my experience things get ugly qik when I clean shop but when I let God fight my battles He handles it in a way I never could

So to my fellow hot heads...LET THE HEAVYWEIGHT HANDLE YOUR LIGHTWEIGHT

The Test I Passed

The devil thought he had me-eeee ahhhhhhh but-uh-ruuuuh

Sooooo remember that test I halfway past (that some thought I failed <--- who cares its my blog) well I'll have you know I had another encounter with the girlfriend of my sons father who I thought was a friend. Now if you didn't read my blog 'the test I half way passed' GETCHO LYFE and then come back and read this one! 

So yea the last test didn't go we'll but ahhh this one did. The ramification of the planned meeting is...NONE YA BIT'NEEX (touch ur nose and try NOT to use your imagination! LOL)  Know that None of this and I repeat NONE of this happened w/o Good ol' God so He gets all the glory and I thank Him <praise break>. 

So yea I have been battling forgiving this young lady a looooooong time...1 year 4months....10days....9hours....36minutes...59seconds. So many emotions, so many tears, so much bitterness, confusion, resentment and all other negative words associated with the afore mentioned. 

I have known unforgiveness was is an issue because The bible speaks on it ALOT but my emotions and feelings were running rampant and I was trying to reason with God and everybody else that she hurt me and trying to figure out why I had to let it go...move on...forgive her for "hurting me" I couldn't get it. Well my Naomi (spiritual mother) did what she does best and said something about me I DIDN'T like at the time that caused me to slide back and talk to God and really seek Him to deliver and heal and just do what He does best. In that time studied and prayed about forgiveness and asked God to help me understand it fully so that I could truly forgive the young lady in my heart because I knew it displeased God and she was a sister in Christ and He don't like His chirren to be at odds ( that's in the bible too, dust yours off and read it j/k..maybe). He did just what I asked. Every time I turned on the radio or looked at twitter or tuned into a Joyce Meyer podcast it was on forgiveness. I was excited because I knew he was providing me with what I needed. 

I had been thinking about how am I going to meet with her or get her to agree to talk face to face so we can settle it and I can be free from unforgiveness and we can be cordial because we share friends and she just maybe my sons stepmom if his dad doesn't mess this one up LOL! I wrote a letter and was going to have someone give it to her at a wedding in December but that was too far out for me! And then I found our friend had her bridal shower and didn't invite or tell me about it because the young lady helped plan it and I still feel some kinda way about that because that's a one time event BUT that's all ima say about that because I knew why its just.....anyway...so I called and cried to my good friend who is also a bridesmaid (too much friend sharing around here!) and told her how I felt and what I had been going through spiritually and she agreed to help set up a meeting and be a mediator and it happened and we talked peacefully getting out both sides and glory be to God! 

I don't do long blogs so I'm stopping now. Part 2 coming soon on what I learned about forgiveness and how important it is. If anybody is dealing with unforgiveness I just graduated with my PhD (personal healing degree) in it so if you need help contact me and I will tell you what I learned and pray with/for you if need be <----it's that serious. 

We go through to help others when it's there turn to make it through.

Thanks to Coco, Kris10 and Beda oh and I can't for get Leeyah

It's illegal to Spank your Child?!

I'm putting on my invisibility cloak as I type this. I think its important for people to see that Christians fall sometimes and go through and that we need the Word of the Lord to keep us from doing so....to correct us....show us the right way. ( that's a whole-nother blog right there! )

Sooooo if you are my "friend" on FB you might have saw my rant about me telling a lady off about telling me how to discipline MY son. If you didn't , looooong story short Aiden fell out in a store and we left, I sat him in the car and was explaining to him that when he falls out in public it constitutes a spanking, he understood. A lady asked if everything was ok with him blah blah blah and told me that I'm not suppose to spank my child. WELL y'all Candi flipped...bump stumbling I fell...and cursed her smoooooth out! <------ NOT indicative of a Christian to be clear, that was pure flesh. In that moment I felt justified. Not that I was justified in cursing out but in being upset with her. I couldn't believe some stranger tried to tell me how to discipline or the lack thereof the child that I carried and pushed out my body WHAAAAAAAT....that aunt it...a bystander told the police I was beating a child in my car (not only a lie but CRAY CRAY)so He came and checked into the matter and apologized for having to bother me after hearing both side "Just doing my job"...."me too".

 Got me to thinking...

1. So is spanking YOUR child illegal?
2. Should you not spank YOUR child in public when they act up out of fear that someone who
doesn't discipline their child ( if they even have any) will reprimand you the parent or tell the authorities what they please?
3. If you can't spank/pop YOUR child in public what are your options? ( me personally I don't want my child thinking that falling out and screaming in public is acceptable, if I wait 30min to spank him when we get home...I'll prolly forget thus NOT reinforcing the bad behavior)?
4. What should you do when confronted by someone you don't know who has a problem with how you handle YOUR child?

NOW i don't have the answers to all the questions but I do know that spanking your child is NOT illegal. I got some good godly advice about the last one. Aidens dear, sweet aunty informed me sweetly that instead of going off I should have used the opportunity to witness and explain godly discipline. After I simmered down I realized that she was right! Ugh I was so upset with me...I always pop off at the mouth before I even have a chance to even think about thinking! So of course I had to go and tell God how ugly I acted and apologize and ask forgiveness and then look into wat a proper response should have been and shall be in the instance that occurs again (pray church).

So parents, future parents, aunties. uncles and grannies! If someone ever tries to correct you on how you discipline YOUR child their are many instances in the bible that can be used to witness or to explain why you do what you do. You can share on proper discipline or use the analogy of how God disciplines those He calls His children.

Parental discipline:
He who spares his rod hates his son, But he who loves him disciplines him promptly. (Proverbs 13:24 NKJV)

*Don’t fail to discipline your children.
They won’t die if you spank them. Physical discipline
may well save them from death. (Proverbs 23:13, 14 NLT)

God disciplines his children:
Hebrews 12:5-11

Think about it: Just as a parent disciplines a child, the LORD your God disciplines you for your own good. (Deuteronomy 8:5 NLT)

References
In the KJV the word chasten is normally used in place of discipline. The concordance on blueletterbible.com has both under Strongs number H4148 (H  = Hebrew)

1) discipline, chastening,correction

     a. discipline

     b. correction, chasening

Merriam Webster defines chasten as

      1: to correct by punishment or suffering 

Merriam Webster define discipline as

      1: punishment

Other verses: 2 Samuel 7:14; Job 5:17; Psalms 94:18; 119:75; Proverbs 3:11; Isaiah 38:16: Corinthians 11:32; Revelations 3:19

Can you discipline without soanking? of course but some things need physical discipline ( ie, falling out on the floor in stores)

Ima Put it Down You Gone Fall in Love

Sooo my booski @ShantiKWright blogs some awesome stuff @ mystepshisjourney@weebly.com and today I caught up on them. She wrote one entitled Ima put it down you gone fall in love which is a song by Brandy and Chris Brown that talks of having sex with someone and falling in love ....ANYWHO...her blog was about not one falling in love after hot steamy sex but after having let ones guard down <---- catchy title right! She talked about how she has been good at guarding her heart questioning herself as to whether she guarded it so much so that she missed out on some good ones.

Well I decided to do my own version because I go through the same thing.....but in reverse <----> I let my guard down to quick and too easy I feel <------ guess that explains why I have been hurt so many times. Ima put it down you gone fall in love, yea that's what I thought...WRONG!  Me putting my guard down didn't cause any of the randoms of my pass to fall in love CLEARLY because I'm extra single. I thought that me opening up would show them I wasn't hard or not interested, that I was down WELP  let me be the first tah tell you for free..."putting in down in any shape, way or form, be it your guard or your cookies doesn't make em' fall in love". 

I don't know much about guarding the heart so I won't speak on it as if I do but if you can comment and help a sista out that would be a bunch of awesome (fyi commenting anonymously is easy if you are insecure about your info...as if its not already readily available). What I do know is that the Good Book says in Proverbs 4:23 Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life. <----- underline that in your bibles church...underline that twice...and then highlight it...and book mark the page

Sooooo Candi doesn't have commintary she has question! You can post here or on FB if that's easier but I do want to and love hearing from any and all who take the time out to read my blog. ( Im getting all sentimintal about my readers I forgot I had question!)

1. How do you guard your heart? (biblical or personal experience and tips)
2. Is there a such thing as guarding your heart too much?
3. How do you know when to "put it down"?

Murderous Beauty

Soooooo hello hello hello! Ya missed me? No? Yes?!  OK so I went to Spoken Word at the Ritz which is held the first Thursday of every month by the way and for the FREE and this young lady read a poem about beauty and people loving themselves and yadah yadah yadah...it was good though, she caught my attention when she said "beauty can be murderous" and it got me thinking so hear I am and there u are ...reading.

Beauty...what the heck is that? At this point nobody knows or at least society has so distorted beauty that it really is in the eyes of the beholder. To some a BIG BOOTY GUH is beauty....to some a big bust...long lashes...long hair. Some like certain skin tones...races... a particular ethnicity. 

At some point in our lives we battle with beauty, some having lost the battle. For most women the battle begins at a young age when you want to hang with the popular girls or you get picked on for having curly hair, a big nose, a small nose, freckles and THEN you get talked about for having big boobs...not so big boobs...weave...short nails...being skinny or being thick/borderline fat trying to keep up with the look of the video vixen and THEN that escalates to needing surgery for larger breast, hips, butt and baggy under eyes, firming cremes and killing yourself in the gym because the magazines and infomercials say you need to look like a real Barbie. 

We strive so much to keep up with society says is beautiful, killing who we are as individuals...killing our self esteem and in some cases killing ourselves because the pressure to looking like societies version of beauty.

Ah but we can know true beauty. BEAUTY IS 1 Peter 3:3-4 Don’t be concerned about the outward beauty of fancy hairstyles, expensive jewelry, or beautiful clothes. ⁴ You should clothe yourselves instead with the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God.
                                                           Beauty is found on the inside, its how you treat yourself and others, its your smile, your character. A pretty face with an ugly attitude is just ugly.

Remember: charm  is deceptive, and beauty does not last; but a woman who fears the LORD will be greatly praised. (Proverbs 31:30 NLT)

Declare: I will praise You, for I am fearfully  and  wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And  that  my soul knows very well. (Psalm 139:14 NKJV)

You are beautiful just the way you are. Don't be a victim of "beauty"...embrace yours.

Assume the Position Pt.3

Hey there my suga sweet readers! ya still with me?!

In Assume the Position, I challenged men to step it up and be men and following that in Assume the Position Pt2 I addressed the women and there roles <==== if you have read neither then you need to GETCHO LIFE catch up and come back to this one!

I went to an unsuccessful Christian event (not many Christians showed up <=== that's blog worthy) last week but me and my Girlz made the best of it and rocked out and a rapper named C-Straight [@CStraighttheone] said something that inspired this blog...he was rapping and all I heard was Assume the Position...it got me thinking *looks off into distance*

SO after clearing everybody else about what they need to do and what not, its about that time for Candi to bend it on ova, drop it like its hot and ASSUME THE POSITION! <=== bent knees before the Lord that is! ===> I'm at a point in my life where I need to seek God on EVERYTHING like right NOW but as a Christian we should already be doing that...right?

I need to assume the position of mother, sister, friend and most importantly daughter of the Most High. I feel like I'm under serious pressure people! I am (under pressure in my mind) but right now my main focus is my position as Gods beloved and mother to Aiden Josiah.

I know what God called me to do and I have been going through these test to prepare me, one in particular which I have yet to pass *deep sigh* . I go through so that when God brings me out, I can help the next person who goes through. I have been running from Him, even ignoring Him at times because I wanted to do what I wanted. In the times I have spent with God He has truly enlightened me on His word. Every time I try to go MY way I'm checked by Luke 12:48 and that freaks me out but lately my prospective is because God has shown me so much I NEED to step it up and assume the position <=== I'm being watched, it's people looking at me to see what I do. Imagine people basing Christ off of how you live because you claim yourself as His follower aka a Christian??? Whoa is that not major? I don't want my struggle to hinder anyone but to help...be assured that you are not alone, you are not the only one battling an issue and God is surely always there *praise break* I feel pressured knowing that if I fail or stumble it may cause someone else tostumble!!! YIKES I really don't want anyone following me because I need Jesus daily to help in my walk but He did call me to be a light to others ===> PRESSURE!!!  I can't speak for anybody else but I know better which means I need to do better and get in place.

What has God called you to do? Are you afraid? Are you running? What are you struggling with (have you taken it to God)? Remember people are always watching you especially on social media (Pray for me in that area, y'all know I will rant qik!) so if you know better do better. Maybe you might need to bend it on ova and ASSUME THE POSITION yourself.

Luke 12:48

But he who did not know, yet committed things deserving of stripes, shall be beaten with few. For 
everyone to whom much is given, from him much will be required; and to whom much has been 
committed, of him they will ask the more.

The Test I Halfway Passed

Can I be real!!!! I been struggling for about a good year with forgiving the father of my child's "friend" girlfriend or wateva they are calling each other. Long story real short I thought she was a friend but let her tell she wasn't even tho she came to my baby shower, the hospital after I had Aiden, baby sat, hugged me everytime she saw me and blah blah BLAH! Yea I have had dreams of hurting her and every ungodly thought you can think!!! I wanted her to feel the pain that her lies and betrayal caused me ANYHOW moving forward (or trying to at least) ===> 

Occasionally I pray for her when I'm not cursing her and I pray for myself that I'll forgive her truly because we share the same friends one special friend in particular. At times I've thought that I had forgiven her but I always said I will know when I see her cuz I hadn't seen her since I cursed her out (yea I had a moment...HECK i had several moments). 

So I'm on the way to our mutual friends birthday celebration to get my skate on and on the way I was talking to God and praying about Him strengthening me and asked Him to help me forgive "her" fareal , fareal.  I had a great time skating!!!!! But I'll be darn if the test didn't come 2 hours lata (I was like c'mon God like right now...) and "she" showed up afterwards at the restaurant! I WAS PISSED instantaneously! I wanted to run up and slap da spit out her mouth <====I'm being real y'all is that alright...this my blog! So I was ready to go cuz in my mind it was going down but in my heart I knew God wouldn't be pleased but I was trying to ignore Him (y'all just don't KNOW ooh).

I got on my phone to call anybody that I could to talk to. Y'all know I had all bars and a 3G but nothing was going through and my text weren't going through <=== like tried SEVERAL times, I knew that was God so I told Him it was funny...He didn't care. I like to think He was up there laughing saying " but daughter this is what you just asked me for, do you not like answered prayer". *show of hands real high anybody Daddy ever aggravate them?!*

Soooo being that everybody there was saved, sanctified, fire baptized and filled with the Holiest of Ghost they kept me level headed and helped me take a step towards a breakthrough that I know will one day ===> sooner than later i hope cuz right now I DON'T LIKE "her" ugh hefa.

So our special friends fiancé and my cousin came out and chewed me out IN LOVE he told me all the way off about letting it go and not giving "her" power and to not talk crazy and some other stuff....he went off on me...in love but it really helped after I let it penetrate my hot ears. Ooh I was mad! Ugh. 

I halfway passed the test and here is why ====> I actually went in and sat at the same table "she" was sitting at but we sat at completely opposite sides <==== for me that is major!!!! I never wanted to EVA share the same breathing space wit "her" but I love our mutual friend a lot tho and know ima have to see "her" sometimes b/c of that.....UGH. I failed because I was hostile, I stared and glared and dared "her" to look at me so I could ask "her" what the HECK she was looking at? She didn't look my way until the end which prompted me to tell her NOT to look at me. In that moment I gratified my flesh but it could been a lot worse.

After it was all over my calls started going through.....

Idk what nobody say it was a small step for me, heck ima call it a small victory cuz I jus wanted to slap "her" but I thank God for people in my life that love me enough to want me to do better for God and myself...I really appreciate them!!! One day I will past the test completely until then readers...pray for me! 

[this happened two days ago and aI can just hear Mrs.Williams in my head..if you get a 50% on the test you still fail...UGH <=== i know ima have retake the test again sooner...again pray for me]

Lonely Ain't Alone

Alright folks transitioning into transparency ===> ok now that my invisibility cloak is on I been struggling wit loneliness. It's been on and off and it's been ANNOYING. FRUSTRATING. AGGRAVATING. <==== these very feelings is how people have been making me feel in this phase of my life. 

I get annoyed by the happy mushy lovey dovey couples who display there affections publicly reminding me of how extra single I am [longing for companionship but yet afraid and not ready <=== that's blog worthy...note to self]. 

I get frustrated with my extra busy associates, acquaintances and few friends because it seems like they are never around or concerned until they see me fuss'n, buss'n, and cuss'n on social media. I have to set meetings to meet with my friends what the WHAT? Oh I feel like I'm always initiating the hang outs, phone calls and text...like if I didn't do that would I hear from anyone????? <====that makes me wana say "TA heck with all ah ya!!!!" BUT I know isolating myself would make me an angry bird so I deal with the poop. 

Aggravated by these no good, two timing, lying, cheating, inconsiderate, immature boys pretending to be men ( being over dramatic, I was in the moment) but really tho' i get aggravated by guys who feel they need to gas me up [boost my head for the socially challenged]...I don't need that I need someOne thats going to be genuine and respectful of my mind and body. "let's just be friends"....LET'S so DON'T TOUCH ME....what kinda friend?! ugh LIES LIES LIES <=== whoa apparently that's blog worthy too, note to self 

I was looking up a few things on loneliness and one site said it's a feeling (and boi do I know about feelings, I be ALL IN) of separation from, God, people and self. So which one is my problem? You guessed it! All of the above <==== you just won a brand new car!!!!! SYKE! Sooooo clearly people are my issue but my main concern is God and self right now. I feel like I'm in this state for a reason like God wants me to become fully dependent on him and not people which is why everybody kinda falling of involuntarily but I don't like it but who am I to argue wit God HA! 

The very thing I'm looking for in people God wants to provide....*crickets*  this is rough tough and uncomfortable. I feel He wants me to Himself to perfect and abstract somethings as well as get me to love and know myself. But leave it to me to be hard headed and running and putting on head phones while God is tryna tell me something for my good. 

I'm saying on a daily I jus wana be loved

                                                        And He says but I've always loved you 

I'm saying I need to get to know more people

                                                       And He says get to know Me 

I'm saying nobody is ever available

                                                       And He says I'm always Here and have been

Lonely but never alone...my struggle, anybody relate?

"Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I have given you. And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age." (Matthew 28:20 NLT)

Clearly it's all in my head

What the WHAT?!?!

Ugh here we go again....betta yet here I go again with the back and forth, the inconsistency SPIRITUALLY! Y'all Candi is going thru which is why I  have NOT been comminting. I was tweeting w/ @Shedabeda and @ShantiKWright about what I am calling a transitional phase HECK might as well call it a re-re-REtransitional phase cuz I have been here and back around the track a few times ===> INCONSITENCY<==== with God, school, career goals, family, friends..you name it.

I am in a state of I DONT KNOW...I am CONFUSED about ever-re-thang which further confuses me. Truth be told I been running from God and what he told me to do...not do.

Have you ever tried running from someONE who was ever-re-where???? doesn't quite work out...

I see so many people who profess Christianity but they are apple bearing orange trees..huh? yea crazy right? I myself have slipped back into doing exactly what I had stopped doing and God has been checking me on it and I have been playing stupid like I don't know betta...2 Peter 2:21 ate me up!!! (That along w/ some other refreshers that were sent my way)

2 Peter 2:21 NLT It would be better if they had never known the way to righteousness than to know it and then reject the command they were given to live a holy life.

When I first started blogging I was trying to find my way and be different I was going to be different and witty and make everybody laugh and that has been going pretty well. Honestly when I first was introduced to blogging by @Sh_Speaks I was thinking of how can I use this as a tool to please God...and then I just went and did what the heck I wanted to do BUT NOW im thinking....how can I use this as a tool to please God? <=== i figured nobody wanted to hear about God because usually when i rant on social media I get the most responses OH but let me talk about God and crickets show up and silence the masses! WELL APPARENTLY God isn't giving up on me (pre'sh8 that Lord) or His idea for me...He asked me why I'm not using my writing talent for Him? and that's when the crickets re-appeared...*I still have yet to answer His question*

anybody else eva get cleared by God or does He just tell me off *looks around...c'mon show of hands LOL!*

Yea so I am asking my sweet readers to stay with me on this journey there will be some changes coming soon BUT I know you'll love it tho cuz I'm still gone be Xtra cuz thats all I know how to be baby baby!!! I just want to talk about what matters like God and also share some of my battles and be Xtra real wit y'all in hopes that it can help at least one person. I will still be pointing out the foolishness my eyes partake in but I'm gong to take a different approach...or try to at least. :-) love ya'll